"You ask him," he said.
So I did.
"I'm Aiden. I'm six," he said.
"I'm Mason and hey, I'm five." And there you have it all was well and figured out.
Adults make things more complicated and as I hear about how Ellie will be 3 on June 2nd, and I will be going to her birthday party, and we will sing for her and all such things, I have forgotten how old I am. There comes a time when you no longer know the number you just know you are you, right then and there in the moment.
And so began my challenge...the 38 things I loved about my birthday. By the way there are so many stories I have seen and replayed in my head lately and they just don't make it out. I wish I could somehow capture the time to express them and perhaps they may resurface in some form, but for now here is my list. This week it seems fitting. There is a lot to do around me and instead I will sit and write my list.
Oh and you should probably know that I am not too worried whether I make it to exactly 38. I am not a stickler for such exactness as I believe it is more about the process, so readers don't worry yourself about the number just know you are you right then and there and enjoy.
The day greeted me early with a crowded bed of snuggly kids that burrowed in to see me. I snuck out at 5:22 am to seek some space of my own as the snuggly had crossed the fine line into cramping muscles and squished. I headed upstairs to Mason's room and embraced the dark, quiet view of our big, brown farm. The silhouette of the tall evergreen tree and the shed/barn made it so magical. I lay there until a wee Ellie found me and climbed on up to snuggle some more. A while later she popped up and announced, "The sun's up. Can we make some popcorn?" Why not? It's my birthday.
|The leprechauns delivered "Gold coins! Enough for everyone!" Mason and Ellie shouted from the front porch as they quickly grabbed Mason's magic hat to scoop them up.|
|It must be my birthday as the "magic" daffodils have made their appearance with the gold coins. They are in full bloom now as I type. If it wasn't so dark I would share their beauty with you. Perhaps I can get a photo in the morning.|
"It's not weird. Mommy gave me a haircut and it's perfect. That's why you think it is weird," he reasoned with her.
|Baby Dax was born and I was off to visit him. I quickly sewed him a gift before heading to the hospital.|
|Josh got the mail on his secret mission outing I was excited to open my brother's card on this Sunday morning. |
The King of perfect book gift giving preordered a copy of Bloom for me.
I can hardly wait to read it.
|My family sang me a happy birthday song and Mason set my place with two of his chocolate gold coins.|
|Ellie's turn with her birthday party favors from the day before. |
Party favor hangovers all day around here.
Here he is the little pirate winking at me with all his newborn baby cuteness!
Baby Dax we love you and are so glad you were born.
Last night before falling asleep I looked through our closet ("yep that's the kind of house I live in and I hope we never leave it" There's a Wocket in My Pocket) and spied the most amazing silhouettes of Ellie and Joshua with their guitars singing away. Ellie chiming in with her song requests and playing right along with Daddy. I wished I could have had a photograph, video, something, but to have tried to capture it I would have ruined it. So I watched. I listened. I am writing about it and keeping it in my memory. I want to remember it always. Maybe I will paint it.
There is a train I am on right now that seems to be speeding right along, but I am glad we slowed and stopped at this station. I feel recharged and read to be "going down the railroad..."